Diphenhydramine
I deconstruct my life, one setback at a time
my shades are closed and I, have no piece of mind
I forget how the sunshine felt on my face
before I noticed, my life’s a waste
That degree, didnt save me.
Decree made me
see things from different angles like I’m playing
pool…
but the crazy thing about it all
is that the cue is like a ten-pound bowling ball.
I push and I push, I dont ever move.
The smooth surface underneath is now filled with grooves
And I’m begging just to lose,
because being in the middle has me tripping like untied shoes
I’ve been lied to.
And nobody knew.
I deconstruct her eyes, one word at a time
legs are closed and I, have no rope to climb
I forget how her skin felt on my face
then I noticed, I’d been replaced
by this.
Fuck today, and all the others (<- Yeah, that familiar mood).
Got my ticket booked today.
I’m going back for two weeks I’ll emotionally pay for, for months.
Talked to JStar about some official CiferCrew business.
Might play Bamboozle Left.
Might play in Flagstaff.
Might play Studio 8.
Will play house parties.
Will spend way too much time in the studio.
Will spend birthday alone and angry.
Has given up on “happy”.
Is now working toward “manageable”.
_Tru
